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Sunday, 17 December 2017

My thoughts on pregnancy...

Back in April when we first found out we were expecting, I couldn't believe it. In fact I refused to believe it until we saw our little bundle wriggling around at our 10 week scan. The relief to know that I wasn't just making it up and I hadn't just caught a sickness bug was truly overwhelming. Fast forward two more weeks when we had our 12 week scan.
It was very surreal that this little baby was developing well within me and would be making an appearance in December all going well.

I also kept thinking who was this little person to be? Were they male or female? What kind of personality would they have? Who would they look like the most? I did a lot of thinking...

I haven't had the easiest of pregnancies, working full-time through the most horrendous morning sickness (who coined 'morning sickness' anyway?). It felt like I was waking up with the world's worst hangover every day - sickness, fatigue, headache etc you name it, hello first trimester! For a long time there wasn't anything to indicate that this was a good thing to be happening, in fact, I struggled for a long time even saying 'I'm pregnant'.

Roll onto the second trimester...
This is the time where I had a couple of weeks where I actually felt good and enjoyed seeing all the little changes that were happening. Then wham... I caught whooping cough. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, two courses of anti-biotics, an inhaler and being signed off work for a week just wouldn't budge it. In the end my doctor said to me "it's known as the 100 day cough" great...
I was very happy to have made it to the school summer holidays and really rested over the 5 weeks, plus doing lots of decorating which made me incredibly happy - nesting happened early for me!

Finally I made it to the third trimester. I have been religious about applying stretch mark cream and body butters since finding out I was expecting (nope, still can't say I'm pregnant?!). We were on our lovely babymoon for me to discover some rather flattering stretch marks - cue the crying!

I never expected me to have these reactions throughout my pregnancy. The way I thought about things and how I viewed myself really shocked me. I've never been a person to worry about 'body image' but all of a sudden, this is all I could (and can) think about. To be honest, I have really struggled with my body's changes and I am already worrying about what 'after baby' is going to look like.

Now I am on maternity leave, it feels like I have lost apart of my identity. Plus on a more selfish note, it feels as if I am missing out. I saw videos of my little class singing their hearts out during their Christmas Nativity play and I just felt so emotional. My job is my passion too - I love my job... I mean how many people can say that? It's not until recently that I've realised just how much I love my job. People keep saying that "when you have your baby you wont even think of work" which maybe true, but this is how I feel.

Reading back through this post, it comes across quite 'moany' and I have even thought about deleting this post. But I think we are surrounded by fairy tales and made to feel like we should be embracing every part of pregnancy. Don't get me wrong, this has been an experience and I have enjoyed certain parts of it. With less than a week to go until she's due, I am very much looking forward to meeting this little one now.


Monday, 11 December 2017

Maternity Leave

I can't believe I am 38 weeks pregnant.

The last few weeks have whizzed by and I am now enjoying my first day of maternity leave. I had a lovely last week at work, complete with a surprise baby shower.
I am really proud of myself that I was able to work up until 38 weeks, despite running around after 30 four and five year olds! It was very surreal handing everything over on Friday to my maternity cover. My laptop and iPad are my life whilst working and to not have those things sitting in the office over the weekend was such a strange feeling.
We had our 38 week midwife appointment today and everything is ticking along very well! I'm measuring exact, iron levels are now back up to 'normal' and baby's heartbeat is strong and steady. It is a waiting game now, but I am determined to make the most of these last few days or few weeks before the little one makes her appearance.

"The average weight of a baby at 38 weeks of pregnancy is about 3kg (6.8lb), and the average length is about 49.8cm - about as long as a leek" 

Days until due date: 12 days

The bump: definitely 'out there' and has definitely dropped.

Stretch marks: I haven't been able to get away from them in recent weeks, I have some 'mummy lines' on the sides of my waist. However, I am still sticking to my strict routine of applying belly butter twice a day.

Cravings: Still no cravings as such, but I have been enjoying drinking hot chocolate to help me drift off to sleep.

Sleep: This is becoming more and more difficult! Before going to sleep I have to arrange a pile of pillows in a certain formation and during the night I am waking up due to feeling uncomfortable.

Best moment of the week: Starting my maternity leave!

Worst moment of the week: Accepting the fact that I have to 'let go' of my wonderful class.

Miss anything? As the festive season gets closer and closer, I am developing a real hankering for a Bailey's coffee! Once the baby has arrived, that is to be my celebratory drink!

Maternity Clothes: As I'm getting bigger by the day, my maternity clothes are becoming tighter and tighter. I have adopted some of James' jogging bottoms and baggy tops to wear as PJs!

Belly button: It is now completely flat - much to my amusement!

Mood: Now I am relaxing, I can feel the stresses of daily life drifting away - it's safe to say I am feeling pretty content!

Looking forward to: Catching up with family and friends this week! 


Sunday, 29 October 2017

The Second Trimester

 *post from 30.09.17*

I can't believe I am now in my final trimester!

I have really enjoyed the second trimester. The sickness has completely gone and I really took the time over the summer to embrace my new found energy!
I had a rocky start with finding the changes difficult, but I am fully embracing the bump. I am also really enjoying wearing clothes that properly fit me and I think this is helped me with my more positive attitude towards my body.
Over the summer, my dad helped me paint the nursery and the baby's room is looking lovely! It's definitely my favourite room in the house at the moment.
I also painted the living & dining room after seeing some gorgeous pictures in a House & Home magazine! I've already made a list of some new accessories I would like to add. I think I may be nesting!

I've also started organising the babies clothes. We have been so lucky in that all of our friends/ family that have had girls have passed loads of items down to us. Some outfits are brand new!
We have even bought some new clothes too - who can resist a babygrow?!
I can't wait to wash them all and hang them neatly in the wardrobe.

I'm most looking forward to our babymoon to Cornwall in October now. Not long until Term 1 finishes!

Sunday, 24 September 2017

My week 24, 25 and 26 pregnancy update

“Your baby now weighs around 2 lbs and is 36 cms long. Their eyes will start to open this week and they will begin practising making breathing movements. Your baby will start to respond more to noises and can hear you and your partner chatting away.”

I cant believe how time is flying by now since going back to work after the holidays. How was my last update three weeks ago?!

How far along: 27+1 today 

Days until due date: 90 days

My bump: After a rocky start with coming to terms with my changing shape, I have turned a corner and I am fully embracing my baby bump! In recent weeks I have definitely popped out and my bump feels really hard and firm now. Some days I feel very neat and compact, and others I feel very heavy. I am still putting on my own shoes though! 

Weight changes: My pre-pregnancy weight was 9.5 stone and the last time I weighed myself I had put on a stone, but it is mainly bump and boobs! Although, I have noticed my thighs have gotten bigger. I am still very active, my job helps with this too as I am constantly on my feet!   

Stretch marks? No – still religiously using Palmers body oil, Bio Oil and plenty of body butters. I will have to do a separate post on these! 

Cravings: I am really enjoying having a hot chocolate in the evenings now before bedtime, but I think this is down to the darker nights and everything is feeling wonderfully Autumnal now. 

Sleep: No major issues with sleep yet – I am sleeping like a baby! It helps that my boyfriend rolls me over if I do end up sleeping on my back. A couple of times I have accidentally woken up on my back and it is a bit achy for the rest of the day, but soon eases. 

Symptoms: Recently I have felt really breathless when I’m talking which is completely normal during pregnancy but feels a bit odd when I have to pause and take a breath in the middle of a conversation! I'm also finding I lose track of what I am saying and I cant remember anything! Baby brain is definitely taking its toll! 

Best moment this week: Seeing our little baby wriggling around in my tummy. I can't wait to meet her! 

Worst moment this week: A couple of really stressful days at work - que the emotions! 

Miss anything? After this week at work I really fancied a Gin & Tonic. 

Maternity clothes: I have bought a couple of maternity bundles from ebay and kept some of the things that were nice. I have just ordered a few bits from jojomamanbebe though as I needed a nursing bra plus a few bits to wear when the weather turns colder. I found a lovely dress and a 4 way cardigan that can be changed into a jumper.   

Movement: Those small kicks/ ripples have developed into full on kicks now which can be seen! Especially when I'm applying my body butter before bed and she has a little wriggle! It's incredible to see.  

Belly button in/out: In but flat (definitely on its way out!)

Mood: Happy and energetic. Feeling a little apprehensive and nervous as I prepare to enter the third trimester. After such a lovely second trimester, I am worried that I am going to really struggle in the final trimester. I also know I will only be getting bigger and will probably have to start taking it easy - something I really struggle with as I like to keep busy. 

Looking forward to: Sorting out the final bits for the baby's room this week. 


Saturday, 2 September 2017

My week 22 and 23 week pregnancy update

“Your baby is the size of an aubergine and now nearly weighs a whole pound. Eyelashes and eyebrows are forming and the baby can now hear your voice, heartbeat, your circulating blood and even a gurgling hungry stomach!”

My bump: My bump is still growing and I feel it is starting to really protrude now and form that nice round, pregnant-belly shape. I feel I have reached the stage where people look at me and realise I am pregnant rather than just a bit bloated! I hope anyway…

Stretch marks? No, not yet. 

Cravings: Nothing really – i'm finding I can't manage big meals at the moment so I am eating little and often and eating plenty of snacks. 

Sleep: My friend gave me an all-round bump pillow that goes underneath you with two cushions either side. That combined with a pillow in-between my legs and I am 'sleeping like a baby'.

Symptoms: Nothing new but my mood has seemed to have taken a turn for the more positive. I can also sense my belly button is on its way out. It has gone almost flat and weird-looking…it freaks me out a little if I’m honest! The sooner it pops the better. Oh and I am also having really vivid, crazy dreams at the moment which is apparently closely linked with pregnancy.

Best moment this week: Enjoying the last few days of the summer holidays before being back at work next week. The sunshine has come out and I am feeling so relaxed. My hypnobirthing book and CD have arrived and I'm really looking forward to listening/ reading about it all! 

Worst moment this week: Getting bumped in my car by a distracted driver whilst I was driving at the weekend. Baby and I are fine but it really shook me up and upset me for the rest of the day.

Miss anything? Not really.

Maternity clothes: Yes I have well and truly embraced the maternity clothes now. After spending a lot of money on bigger sized clothes during the past few weeks, only to return them a couple of days later, I have won a couple of maternity bundle auctions on Ebay. I can't wait to try it all on once it arrives. Bigger sizes is ok if it looks ok on you however, it just made me look bigger than I am and the shape/ cut just didn't suit me or do me any justice! I am pretty sure this is why my self-confidence took a dip around 20- 21 weeks. 

Movement: The baby is definitely beginning to form a pattern of movement, it tends to be at night, in the morning and around lunchtime. The ripples or swirling movements have developed into a definite 'kick' too! James has also been able to feel her move which is amazing. 

Belly button in/out: In (but weird)

Mood: Happy and relaxed and enjoying this stage in my pregnancy where I am starting to show but still very able to walk around and enjoy light exercise. 

Looking forward to: My midwife appointment on Monday and getting back into a routine once starting back at work. 

Sunday, 20 August 2017

21 week pregnancy update

“Your baby now weighs about 360g and is nearly 26.7cm long. This is about as long as a carrot. Her skin is transparent and gradually turning from pink to red, as capillaries form underneath. Her eyebrows are becoming thicker, her lips are more defined, and her eyes are moving rapidly under her closed eyelids”

This week I haven't felt quite like myself. I am struggling with my bodies changes and it doesn't help when people are commenting "look at your boobs!", "Look how big you are getting" when you are feeling a bit self-conscious, it's the last thing you want to hear. 

Moods: a bit 'down in the dumps' 

Stretch marks? No stretch marks yet however, I am still applying Bio Oil twice a day and after having a bath/ shower I apply the Palmer's Cocoa Butter 

Cravings: No actual 'I must have it now' cravings, I am still enjoying fresh fruit. Although I have taken a fancy to crunchies! 

Sleep: I knew I was going to jinx this! I'm finding it harder to get comfortable at night again. Once I have found a good sleep position, it seems to last for a week and then I am back to square one! 

Symptoms: I have been to the hairdressers this week and had the most wonderful treatment applied to my hair. I've also had a good inch taken off of the ends and it does look a lot better. 

Best moment this week: Going to the hairdressers, seeing friends and relaxing at home. 

Worst moment this week: Feeling like I can't wear anything, nothing seems to fit! 

Movement: I am still having the 'rolling' sensations, but they are definitely becoming more prominent. I am finding the baby is moving the most at night. 

Gender: A gorgeous baby girl

Looking forward to: Seeing friends this week that I haven't seen for ages. I am still thoroughly enjoying the summer holidays. 

Wednesday, 9 August 2017

It's a.....


We can't wait to meet you little one


My Week 19 and 20 Pregnancy Update

“Your baby is the size of a mango and now measures 10 inches from head to heel. They are growing bigger and stronger every day and key senses are still forming eventually enabling them to smell, see, hear, touch and taste. You are officially at the halfway stage now and you will feel those flutters and kicks any day now.”

Today I am 20 weeks plus 4 days and I am so pleased to have had turned a corner in my pregnancy. These past two weeks have been so so lovely.

Moods: very happy, content and just feel really lucky to have got this far in my journey.

Stretch marks? No stretch marks yet however, I am applying Bio Oil twice a day and after having a bath/ shower I apply the Palmer's Cocoa Butter . I love using oil and butter and feel like I am bonding with baby every time I apply it to my growing bump. I know butter isn't for everyone, but I really enjoy using it. I would suggest warming it up in your hands first to let it melt a little bit.

Cravings: No actual 'I must have it now' cravings, but I am really enjoying fresh fruit such as peaches and nectarines!

Sleep: Sleep has been much better recently and I now go through the night without waking.

Symptoms: Brittle hair and some acne has come back on my face (I knew I jinxed it!)

Best moment this week: Our 20 week scan yesterday. We attended our anomaly scan yesterday at the hospital and are over the moon that everything is perfect and right on track. I find the whole pregnancy process fascinating and I have my nose constantly in a book, really enjoying finding out more and more! I was just in awe of our baby wriggling about on the screen, seeing the four chambers of the heart and seeing it's little lips was mind blowing!

Worst moment this week: Not being able to get outside much because of this awful wet and rainy summer!

Movement: I am still having the 'rolling' sensations, but they are definitely becoming more prominent.

Gender: Soon to be revealed...

Looking forward to: Going out for lunch tomorrow with my grandparents, and seeing my best friend on Friday 


Thursday, 3 August 2017

18 week pregnancy update

“Your baby is the size of a dragon fruit and is nearly six inches long. Its weight will increase about six-fold over the next month! Your baby is practicing breathing and its chest is moving in rhythm as if breathing air. Your baby’s hearing has now fully developed so it can hear the sounds coming from outside the womb much clearer.”

This week I have been so so tired! Having a full nights sleep, plus having a 3+ hour nap each day in the afternoons.
I've also noticed that my skin is so much brighter and clearer *hooray*

Movement wise, I am beginning to feel almost like a 'rolling' sensation in my lower abdomen. I notice this most when relaxing on the sofa in the evening, or when I am lying down in bed. It is so reassuring to know that either he/ she is making the most of the space in my tummy.

My breasts have also been feeling very sore and heavy again - I am wearing a sports bra when sleeping to give me a little bit of support.

We have also had our next scan date through - August 8th! Very exciting!

Wednesday, 26 July 2017

Week 15, 16 & 17 Pregnancy Update

I decided to combine these weeks as all of the symptoms have been the same throughout.
I am still suffering with sickness, but this does seem to be easing off now. I've worked out that I cannot let myself get hungry, so I always have a stash of biscuits in my handbag.

The bump is starting to show now, definitely more 'rounded'. I haven't got any stretch marks yet and have been combining Bio Oil with Palmers Tummy Butter. My skin has also cleared up recently and I am feeling more confident within myself again.

I have also been using my new pregnancy pillow - the DreamGenii. I do however, keep rolling over onto my back and wake up during the night incredibly uncomfortable. I love sleeping on my back/ front and it's taking some time getting used to sleeping on my side.

My appetite has decreased again and I'm having to force myself to eat - little and often is best. I love fruit at the moment, but I wouldn't say it was a craving as such. I just love the juicy-ness as I have been quite thirsty in this hot weather.

Unfortunately, I still have my cough/ cold so went back to the doctor's again and they have diagnosed me with 'whooping cough' also known as the '100 day cough'. I'm thankful that it is now the summer holidays, so I can really take the time to relax and look after myself.

We also have our date through for our 20 week scan - August 8th. We are getting asked a lot if we are going to find out the gender. We were going to keep it as a surprise, but after a lot of going back and forth, we have changed our minds to find out. As it's our first baby, I am feeling anxious, so I do think it will give me something to focus on and enjoy after a difficult start to this journey.

I am really looking forward to feeling baby move now that we are in the second trimester. It must be a weird but incredible feeling. x

Sunday, 2 July 2017

The First Trimester

So, I am 15 weeks and 1 day today and can only just bring myself to write a little update on how the first trimester has been.

From 2-4 weeks it was lovely. Didn't feel any different apart from waking up at 3am for a bowl of cereal! Unfortunately, it has been downhill since then.
I've been struggling with morning sickness and nausea, headaches, loss of appetite, mega (and I mean almost crying mega) sore breasts and lower back pain. Not to mention the crazy emotional roller coaster I have been on... Hormones are wonderful!
I couldn't feed the cat as the smell of her food would make me sick. I couldn't step foot into our spare room as there was just this... smell which I can't describe, but it would make me feel instantly sick and I would have to run to the bathroom. Scrolling through my phone or laptop would give me motion sickness. And certain rooms at school would make me heave.
I did buy an air freshener to put in our spare room which only made the smell worse! Having 'superhuman' smelling powers is not for me!
For the past three weeks I've had a non-stop cough, coughing through the day and in my sleep, which would then wake me up. After having the cough for two weeks, I was given some anti-biotics to take. Unfortunately, being as I am so impatient, I went back to the doctors the following week to be given an inhaler and to be signed off for a week with a chest infection. To say that I have been utterly exhausted is an understatement.

With all this going on, it's a wonder I have even survived the past two terms at school. Observations, SIA visits, work scrutiny, induction meetings to new parents, new starter visits, trying to organise an art activity for the transition week - amongst trying to keep the house nice and clean... it has been hard work.

This is a bit of a 'moany' post and I know that everyone is different. I just hope that the second trimester brings a more happier time for me (and my poor other half).

Sunday, 16 April 2017

I have a little secret...

I've got a little secret...

I am pregnant! (Yes it feels strange saying that)

I cant believe it... 9 months trying to conceive and we did it!
Only James and I know at the moment and just keeping my blog on the quiet until we get to the important 12 weeks.

Here are my first 'signs' of pregnancy:

- Strong sense of smell (cooking smells were and still are strong, the bin has been emptied more times than I can count)

- Extreme tiredness (I spent the entire Easter weekend asleep)

- Lots of tugging in my stomache

- Gone off chocolate (very serious)

I then started getting this tugging, pulling and stretching in my abdominal area quite like PMS cramps. This, I thought, was really strange as I don't normally suffer with PMS. After a few days of the cramps, I decided on a whim to purchase a pregnancy test.

After 'doing my business' I didn't have to wait long for the test to develop before I got the 'Big Fat Positive' that we had been desperately wanting.

When I saw that cross, this huge sense of relief, happiness, shock, excitement, nervousness... then all of a sudden sheer panic!
I am a natural worrier and can worry about anything and everything. However, I am determined not to worry about what I can't control. I know anything can happen at anytime during a pregnancy although, I am going to do my best to make sure little 'pea' sticks.

I went and got two more tests - the Clear Blue Digital ones and did a second test this morning. Low and behold, another positive result!

I am tempted to do the second digital test a couple of days later just to see if the screen changes. I have two dates in mind that could have been 'the ones' and it will be interesting to know which date it was - plus, I don't want to waste the spare test!

Now I need to ring the Doctor's surgery and book in for a confirmation appointment.

This is so overwhelming and I can't believe it's real.

Fingers crossed everything goes well.


Monday, 10 April 2017

Meet Mabel

And so it has happened... we have welcomed a 9 week old kitten into our household!
She is utterly adorable, so fluffy and full of character!
I can feel the stress falling away already.
I am in love.

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